Monday, February 13

Faithful

     So this past week I came to a realization...God is faithful.  I know this is not news to you, it isn't anything I didn't already know either.  But isn't it amazing when God suddenly reveals Himself to you and you see His faithfulness in a fresh and new way? That is what happened to me this past week.  It was during a particularly lazy morning when my son crawled into bed with me after he woke up.  My husband was getting ready for work and I was holding baby brother, feeding him his bottle.  Big brother is very snuggly and loves to cuddle.  I love to hear his little voice say "mamma, I want to hold you..." which means he wants to snuggle in beside me while i put my arms around him.  This particular morning, he crawled into bed with me to "hold me" and my baby boy laid on my other side.  As I watched my husband walk by, looking handsome in his sport coat, I had a moment of revelation.  God gave me three men in my life who love me unconditionally.  Not only that, but each one of them adore me in their own way.
     For those of you who have had a strong relationship with your father, this might not be that significant of a realization for you.  But I didn't have that.  My dad and I stopped having much of a relationship when I was about eleven or twelve years old.  Then, when I was sixteen, he passed away.  I've always felt a missing piece in my life where a father should go...but I never prayed for God to change that.  I never thought to pray for God to give me that unconditional love from a man...I did, however, pray that I would accept it from Him.  God began to fill that void with His love and Mercy, answering my prayer and giving me what I asked.  It wasn't until that lazy morning that I realized He has given me MORE than I'd asked.  He is faithful.  He gave me one man, ten years ago, who showed me unconditional love and adoration.  Then, six years later, He gave me another little man, who loves me more than anything in this world besides his daddy...my oldest son.  Finally, He blessed me with our baby boy, whose face lights up when I walk into the room.  I no longer have a missing piece in my life where a father's unconditional love should go....it is filled up and running over with love.  What's even more amazing, is that I get to watch my daughter experience a life with a devoted and loving father that I didn't get the opportunity to experience.  Like I said, He is faithful.

"Now to Him who by the power that is working within us is able to do far beyond all that we ask or think, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen."   
Ephesians 3:20-21